TWo Steps.......
You know the saying........ Two steps forward three steps back, right? I think that’s what Angus and I did. Well there goes the bubble. I know its not as bad as I am feeling right now, but damn, just damn. I want security, with us and our future, thank you very much. I wish I was as secure in how I felt about him two years ago as I do now. I would, and probable should have said, yes when he asked me to marry him. But I didn’t. I thought I was being the “ Responsible One”. Then shit happened that I can’t change. And I hate myself for it. We didn’t have a fight, we just talked a little. So its not all that bad. I am just feeling sad about some of the things said is all.
PS How do you tell someone that used to always say “ You should try marriage two, three,four,five,six times before you give up on it… Ask me again or we probably won’t be OK from here?
Posted on 08/12/04 at 01:50 AM