THE MAN IN THE COURTYARD.

I am not even sure where to begin here. Today started out very nicely. I was woken up at the wee hours (one hour later than usual) as expected for the, you know, which was good.  We had our coffee, got the kids off to school, then had our champagne.Ok I have to be honest here, a few minutes ago I was sobbing silently and a wreck and knew just what I wanted to write, now I sit here trying to put it into words and can’t.

I guess I could start with the tittle. Have you ever seen the commercial with the man that screams “ I LOVE THIS WOMAN, I LOVE THIS WOMAN” and then gives her a anniversary ring? Well, thats how I feel about this man. I could do that every day. That is just how I feel about him, and it kind of sucks. Sometimes I think it was easier to live with a man I was suppose to love because I married him and had three children with than a man I am deeply in love with. And as my life goes, I don’t have time to finish my thoughts, I have children to pick up from school, home work to help with, and dinner to make. Don’t you wish you were me? Guess I have more corners in my head than I thought.

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HALF WAY OVER THE EDGE

Ok, so he didn’t come home and tell me he was going into work tomorrow. Just that he is going back in tonight. He just wanted to pop in for a hour to kiss me and see how my day went. How sweet. NOT! Ya, the sweet talker that I miss comes out at the most convenient times.

I did tell him about my plans for tomorrow, and he’s All Game. So he better finish this deal up tonight. Even if he is there until midnight. Oh did I mention that I slaved all day making a wonderful lasagna for the man that complains all the time about not having decent meals most of the week because he works a lot of nights? He says he will re-heat it and it will be wonderful. Smack me hard if I ever say that I miss the sweet talker that he once was.

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SURE SHE'S SICK!

Zoe is home sick today. Ya, real sick. So sick that she just had to try on her Halloween costume and model it for me. So sick she ate a whole Marie Calendar’s chicken pot pie, and then a fudge bar. She is getting her tush to school tomorrow!

It’s Angus’s only day off. And I bought champagne. And I plan on drinking it. With NO children home (you know champagne makes one a little frisky) sick! Usually we have it on a Sunday, when he has one off that is. But seeing how the dear old EX has taken a walk on his children, we have them 24-7. Which is killing my Sunday champagne and sex ritual. So we have decided that when he has Tuesdays off we will pretend it’s Sunday.

I think if he comes home today and tells me he is going into work I will just go over the edge. He has been working all but one day every two weeks, and it’s getting to me. I plan on turning off the phones and the answering machine is going on mute so no one from work can call him. Of course I will check it to make sure there are no calls from school nurses,the paranoid mommy that I am.

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THE BOYFRIEND

I did manage to get most of the cleaning done the other day for the dinner with the kids. All in all the boyfriend seemed nice enough. Angus of course had a couple of comments on the negative side. But admitted that no guy is going to be good enough for any of his girls. Heck, he’s not sure any girl is going to be good enough for the Aidan!

Now I can live with some piercings, I know its all the rage and way cool right now. Missy added a couple new ones since seeing her last, but they were tasteful in my humble opinion. One ever so tiny one on the side of her nose and the same size one under her lip, but a little over to one side. I thought it looked cute.

What I don’t like is the tongue piercings, and he had one. He kept flipping it out of his mouth and playing with it all night! I chalked it up to a nervous habit. Now if he didn’t have that I could live with the spike he had under his lip. Of course before the end of the night I just had to ask Missy if it ever jabbed her when the kissed. Only a couple of times was her answer. Now, once would be enough for me to tell him to at least put a round stud in instead. But hey I’m old, right?

But like I said before, all in all he seemed like a nice boy. He didn’t struggle to hard for conversation. He was very polite and his manners at the table were up to par for both Angus and I. And to please us both at the table is not an easy feat to pass let me tell you.

My only advice to him would be: DO NOT MENTION IN FRONT OF THE FATHER THAT HIS DAUGHTER SNORES!  It lets that quivering fact be known that YOU ARE SLEEPING WITH HIS BABY GIRL!

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SO MUCH FOR A DAY OFF!

I think I could really hate Angus’s job. It’s suppose to be his day off, ya know to spend with me. He is at a seminar for work right now. It doesn’t get over until 5 PM. And I could really use his help around the house today.

Missy (step daughter #2, there are three) her boyfriend, (that she wants us to meet,whats up with that? Not sure we really want to know lol) and Sara(SD#3) are coming over for dinner tonight. I have been unpacking and going through the things to toss and the things to keep all week. I have even managed to hang some pictures and decorate a little.But I am way behind in the cleaning and would like it to look nice for their first visit here. I am waaaaaaaay tired today, do to a late night of conversation and probably to much wine. Housework is the last thing that I would like to do today thankyouverymuch!

Oh and a little advice before I go today! DO NOT EVER USE YOU DINING ROOM TABLE AS A LADDER TO LIFT A CHANDLER THAT YOU WANT HIRE TO THE CEILING! You could slip and brake the table as you go crashing down. Yes I did that and I have the cuts and bruises to prove it!

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YES! YES! YES!

WA HOO! WA HOO! WA HOO!
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Spell Check For Fire Fox!

Yeah! I finally found the spell check I was looking for my firefox browser! I am soooo excited. I was so tired of the copy paste thing I had to do with every blog entry. My spelling sucks, I have to admit it. A lot of it is pure laziness lol.

Not much going on around here this weekend. Angus has to work 13 hour shifts until Monday. So just me and the kiddo’s. We did the “Hurry Up And Wait” thing all day yesterday at the VA hospital. My suspicions were right about Angus’s leg being a circulation problem. So we have a few more appointments scheduled for next month. But they pretty much told him that he HAS TO STOP SMOKING.

This should be fun. He stopped for almost 24 hours several months ago, until he had is nightly cocktail. That did it in for him. And there is no way he will give that up! So we are going to some smoking sensation class they offer. I guess they can prescribe an anti depressant if you want one. Hell ya, they better give it to me! Not that I think I will have so much a hard time with the actual quitting (I used the patch in half the time it recommended years ago and really didn’t have that much of a hard time that I remember) it will be the stress of Angus quitting that I will need it for LOL!

I think what helped me out most was that I stayed away from things that would trigger my brain to want one. My computer (I will miss you for a few weeks) but will probably blog anyway. Talking on the phone for more than a few minutes (which I rarely do anymore anyway). Friends that smoke, or can’t hold out for the time I am with them for a couple of weeks. And having a glass of wine, that is really the big one. I love having wine with dinner a few nights a week. Usually the nights that Angus is home and we can have dinner together as a family.

Oh my gawd, I just realized. As I type this list I could go on and on. But I guess other than morning coffee, those are the big ones. Maybe if I can do the patch and the drugs it won’t be so bad!

Well off to the book store. Sophia needs Taming of the Shrew for school. I think I will take all the children with me so that I won’t spend hours in there and come out broke. Um, re- thought that. They are all as bad as me when it comes to book stores!